I had tried (and failed) at Weight Watchers many times before. I don’t know what was different this time, I just promised myself that I would do it for the whole three months and if I didn’t like it at the end, I could quit. I committed to three months of no cheating, doing what I was told, and being honest with myself. That was probably the biggest thing, admitting that I wasn’t honest with myself a lot of the time.
At the end of the three months, I’d lost 20 pounds and was hooked. More than half the battle of food for me was mental. What I thought I needed, what I was craving, eating without thinking, eating when I wasn’t hungry, eating because I was bored. I also thought I had 20 pounds to lose and then I’d be at a good place. It wasn’t until I lost those 20 pounds that I realized how much weight I was actually carrying around and how bad things had gotten.
At this point on my journey, I’ve lost 44 pounds. I go back and forth, sometimes on Weight Watchers and focused on losing weight, while other times, I just work on maintaining and testing out the waters of making good choices on my own. The journey has been slow and steady. I know there are people that have lost twice as much weight as I have in the same amount of time, but I can’t compare myself to them. Their journey is different than mine.
For me, I feel I’m losing it slowly enough, and making enough healthy, better choices for my life, that this will stick. This is a lifestyle change, not just a diet. I had to relearn how to eat, how to think about food, how to move my body.
There is no finish line now. I don’t have a weight to hit so I can start eating fattening, delicious, decadent food again. I’m changing my eating habits for life. There isn’t a number that will magically mean I don’t have to go to the gym anymore. I’m going to the gym now. And I’ll keep being active for life.
Through this process, I’ve learned some things about myself, about my body, about food, about exercise, about motivation, that I wish someone had told me a long time ago. I don’t know if I would have listened, if it would have made a difference sooner, but this week I’m going to share it with you. Because maybe you’re ready to make better, healthier choices. Or maybe you’ve been making them for a while and need a little kick in the butt (this happens every few months for me), or maybe you’re just thinking about making some better, healthier choices and something you see here might work for you.
I’m not an expert by any means. But I’m finally learning, at 32, how to be the expert of my body. And it feels so great. So join me this week, add to the conversation, and let’s talk about getting healthy.