Yesterday my post about what’s been going on recently and my winter blues was supposed to publish. But then I got hacked and everything I wrote this weekend was gone. Which kind of adds to the winter blues a bit.
I’ve been struggling to find my voice recently. Struggling to find the focus to sit down and write. I think about writing all day, think about what I’m going to write, what words I want to use, what I want to share. But when the time of day comes for me to actually do it (I do most of my writing and blog work after the girls are in bed), I have no motivation, nothing to say, and no desire to say it.
This weather, this nasty, cold, bleak, messy weather, has a lot to do with it. For the first time in my life, I’ve seriously considered moving south. I don’t want to live somewhere that requires me to warm my car up for twenty minutes before I leave. That requires six days off from school (as of today, there’s more coming soon) that will mean giving up some of my already-shortened summer break. I don’t want to know what frozen boogers in my nose feel like.
The winter slump I’m in makes everything harder: getting dressed every day, getting to the gym in the afternoon, figuring out what to make for dinner every night. I don’t feel inspired, together, or motivated. I don’t think I’m depressed, but I’m seasonally sad. If that’s a thing.
So if posts are few and far between now, know that’s why. And it doesn’t help that I have to rewrite everything I did this weekend. I got lots of things started that I’ve been wanting to write. I had posts scheduled for the week. One about sharing my stories that I felt was better writing than I had been doing recently. So that kind of sucks. (Note: using “sucks” in writing would not be considered good writing.)
So that’s where I’m at right now. I went to a local Influence Network meetup this weekend that got some creative juices flowing again and it felt good to talk shop, writing, goals, and business with people that do what I do. I don’t talk about the business of blogging on my blog, I don’t think my audience particularly cares about it and it’s not something I care to write about. But I love this thing I’m doing, I love this place. So if I’ve never shared that or haven’t said it recently, thank you. Thank you for coming here.