I didn’t know what to expect. I just knew there was this longing inside of me I couldn’t shut up and people raved about this relationship they had with their Creator I wasn’t experiencing.
So I decided 2015 was going to be the year I finally made time for a daily devotion. Making a decision like that at the beginning of the year wasn’t new for me (or anyone else, for that matter), but last year I actually stuck with it.
2015 was the year I finally spent time–about 25-30 minutes every morning–reading my Bible, journaling, praying, and listening for God. Some days it went really well. Some days it was just okay. Some days were just plain rough. But if I showed up, so did God. It was never a waste of time. A few times I felt like a lesson didn’t teach me anything, but I kept truckin’ through, getting up each morning, first at 5:30 and then, when I got my new job, at a more reasonable hour of 6:30. Some days I missed, but most days I did not.
My life was changed because of the commitment I made to show up every morning and let God do his thing. I didn’t know what was going to happen or what he could even do with me, but I made myself available and said, Here’s what I’ve got. It’s not much, but it’s yours.
And he flipped my world upside down.
Actually, he flipped my world right-side up would probably be a better way to put it.
I didn’t even realize how lost I had become. But he was patient and loving and kind with me. Sometimes he was even funny. He corrected and quieted me. He covered me with grace and forgiveness and then more grace.
I fell in love with Jesus in 2015. Hard, fast, and forever.
I don’t have five easy tips for you to do the same. I don’t have tricks that will make my journey your journey. What I did is really simple and really difficult at the same time. You need to show up daily to God’s Word and he’ll do the rest. It’s like the laziest and hardest thing you’ll ever do. But you won’t regret it for a second.
This week I’m going to share four ways God ruined my life last year as I faithfully spent time with him and asked to be broken and remade. Some of it was painful. Some of it was fun. Some of it was painfully fun.
2015 was my best year ever.
I think 2 Corinthians 3:16-18 sums up best what happened to me in 2015:
Whenever, though, they turn to face God as Moses did, God removes the veil and there they are–face-to-face! They suddenly recognize that God is a living, personal presence, not a piece of chiseled stone. And when God is personally present, a living Spirit, that old, constricting legislation is recognized as obsolete. We’re free from it! All of us! Nothing between us and God, our faces shining with the brightness of his face. And so we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become like him.
I just spent a year reading a book some people think is all about rules, and I’ve never felt freer in my life. I don’t know how any of that even makes sense. The world, for so long, has told me and you and everyone else who will listen that we don’t need what that books says, what we need we have inside of us. But guys, that is wrong, so wrong. I’d been doing it for years on my own and while I didn’t think I was unhappy or missing out, I was. The veil hadn’t been lifted yet so I thought my view was best. Only because I didn’t have anything else to compare it to.
And now, I see how dead everything was. I see everything the veil was blocking. I see clearer now.
Friends, Jesus ruined my life last year. He messed up so many things I had going. He changed my heart, my mind, and my relationships. He took away my security, most of my income, and my sense of comfort.
I’ve never been happier.
I can’t wait to share my ruin with you this week. See you tomorrow.
Edit: This is a post I wrote after doing a 60-days in the Bible series last March. It breaks down how I started doing my daily quiet time and what I use. Not that you have to use the same things I do, but it can be a starting point if you don’t know where to go next.
The rest of the series:
How Jesus ruined my life: He took away my money
How Jesus ruined my life: He made me write about my faith
How Jesus ruined my life: He’s making me start a small group
How Jesus ruined my life: odds & ends